Life’s journey - A burden worth carrying

James from Richmond

There will be those that lack the same vision that you have, there will always be those that will set out on the journey with you but when the it doesn’t meet their interests despite the loyalty that they gave you they will hop off along the way if it no longer benefits them and their interests, life gives but life takes away.

Do not get to caught up in the sound of things because everything comes to an end eventually; no matter what you do, no matter how bad you want to keep it, no matter what you sacrifice everything in this world must come to an end eventually, nothing is meant to last and everything has an expiry date.

I am 22 years as of writing this & I have been through so much pain & loneliness despite how young I am, though this loneliness has brought me to my darkest hours, like the saying/quote goes ‘from light comes darkness, & from darkness light’ - from this darkness shall I see what others cannot when I do gain what I lacked hat others posses.

Loneliness and this journey has been so very painful however, it has separated me from the flock and made me who I am as an individual, I believe that from this loneliness, though it be a very cruel thing to deal with, has enabled me to see what others can’t, to give me mannerisms that others lack, or perhaps even to say that My potential for success is greater than that of your average Joe because of what I have been through alone.

There’s a Quote that I appreciate that goes ‘the ones who falls and gets back up is stronger than the one who didn’t’, I’m not saying I’m stronger than everyone else nor some outstanding figure of greatness but I believe that this pain shall pave my way for success.

One of my philosophies is that success is determined by the painstaking circumstances that one goes through and overcomes and how we rise and keep pressing forward, now I know there are many other easier ways for one to learn proper mannerisms and respects than what I had to go through (I mean that’s why the majority of wealthy hard workers spoil but discipline their offspring right? To give them the chances that they never got and to instill them with the wisdom and knowledge that they lacked at a young age and had to go through a lot of trial & error as well as heartbreak.

I’m trying hard to create and build an audience on both YouTube as well as my Blog and sponsor/donations to get both my mother and I to a better place, to finally start enjoying the finer things in life and to not wallow in self pity over the cruel hand of fate or to not try and break free from the norm of society.

I know that with persistence in my craft shall I ventilations see results because even if it doesn’t yield anything significant short term, there’s a massive potential for the long term and that’s what I should be focusing on.

But I let my emotions dictate my actions often when it comes to being around others, especially in a work place and that’s why I had to leave my previous job, because I dealt damage to company property however luckily due to my hard working for my final two weeks I didn’t have to pay back for the costs in coverage.

However, I wish I knew these platforms to which I can build upon now back then so I could’ve saved up and re-invested in these platforms so I could be seeing a higher ROI (return on investment) faster.

But I didn’t, and to top that off I spent my last pay check which was around $1400 (holiday pay included) within the span of 2 weeks all because my girlfriend (the first person ever (including my family) who I let in my heart and opened up wholesomely to had given up on me and betrayed me.

I feel utterly disappointed in myself and quite frankly stupid in making such a foolish decision in doing so but hey, I didn’t know what I do now but if only I did right?

Only we have what it takes to change our circumstances, only we have it within ourselves to change for the better of not only ourselves, but for our loved ones as well.

I lacked a lot opportunities that would come to the average Joe easily as a youngling and for that I yield somewhat of an envious or a passive-active nature.

I cannot fully appreciate life because of the worries and woes, financial stress and what not, anxiety and an unsettling uncomfortable feeling of being around others because I cannot fully appreciate their company or socialise because I’ve been so alone for so many years.

I prefer my own company and I’m way different from your everyday Joe, I don’t go clubbing, I don’t go out drinking, I hate being loud and obnoxious because I always have others in mind and I don’t want to create an uproar and upset those around me such as the elderly and such because the noise may have a negative effect on their health.

Yeah I know it’s good to be mindful, disciplined, and what not heck, I love reading books, fitness, working out, making friends, jogging, being with family, helping others (which is what I want to do for a living), but is it that because I’m to cautious and considering others that I’m holding myself back from just going about and being myself?

I don’t know, I just want to earn from these possible income streams because I’m not getting any younger, I want to learn as much as I can before I get old enough that I start looking back on my life and look over at what I accomplished and all that.

This one was just a small insight of my desires from these platforms and what I want.

Thank you so much for reading this short article 😊

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Have a good day.